Today I am getting down to work on a few things — after a nice, relaxing holiday weekend.
In addition to my day job, I started work on building up my self-esteem and confidence. I ordered the book, “The Self-Confidence Workbook” after recognizing how my low self-esteem has impacted me negatively. Particularly, following Phil and I’s engagement being broken, I noticed that I have felt really bad about myself. After attempting to “freestyle it” for a couple months now, I realize that I am going to have to focus and do some real work to deal with the trauma I have experienced. I have been in individual psychotherapy, and while talking to someone has helped… I’ve needed more.
I read the first chapter this afternoon, and did all of the corresponding exercises. I can’t explain why but this kind of cognitive behavioral work seems to help almost immediately. Maybe it is simply the act of helping myself, and feeling like there could be a path forward without suffering (hope)?