I have always had difficulty writing. It’s not that I am a bad writer; the process has just always been stressful for me. I agonize over what to write about, and how to best describe what I am thinking… I beat myself up for not being more eloquent, or think that no one will even read what I write (or care).
I have seen writing as a practice — you’re supposed to write in your journal or diary regularly, for example. And I have always felt I lack the discipline to do so (I typically experience creative energy in short bursts and then I move on to the next thing).
The idea behind writing a blog post on my website each day was that I will practice the act of putting my thoughts and/or feelings into words. And that it might help structure my days, or help me become more disciplined.
But some days it is really, really hard. The negative self-talk can be deafening at times.